It amazes me sometimes how much I am reading these days. I can remember when I didn't read a single book within a year, and now God has got me reading more than I can count. Funny how things change when you hand your life over to Christ...
In my theology class this past week, we had to recall our salvation story...I must admit it has been a long time. But it got me thinking, was I really saved back when I was 10 years old? I have asked myself this question many times, but this time it really was a challenge to think of it. I guess it was difficult because I cannot remember much when I was 10 years old. I know that the professor was not trying to put into question of my salvation, but it definitely got me to weigh if I truly handed over my life to Christ back then. And now I am assured that I did. I understand now more than ever that God took a hold of me as I child, bathing me in a joy that I know can only come from Him. Though I cannot fully understand it at 10, I can understand it today. I think my confusion of my salvation came from the fact that I had never experienced since then a complete joy and reliance in Him as I did back when I was a child. My rededication was such an emotive time and release of control that I had no other basis for it except when I had the faith of a child...whew!
But my story aside, God's change in people are such wonderful stories. THERE IS NEVER A BORING OR BAD STORY WHEN IT COMES TO BEING SAVED BY CHRIST. It is amazing to see the wonderful and perfect ways He affects change in those who surrender to Him.
Who would've thought the boy who stuck his fingers in the light socket again and again all those years ago could have such thoughts?! Praise God from whom all blessings flow....
hahaha!! yeah, i did the same thing with a half-pulled out light plug...and look how i turned out! One thing I really appreciated about Dr. Shouse was how he said that conversion is often a process. I have always been under the impression that the moment you become a Christian it is a moment that is ingrained into your memory forever. It is an instantaneous moment and from then on everything is changed. Ok while that is true, I don't remember my moment because I was only four. I've felt guilty about that for so long, but the way Dr. Shouse responds to our stories eases my mind. I was saved by Christ 19 years ago, but it's been a long process to get me to grow.
ReplyDeleteit's really twisted how listening to the salvation stories of others brings up so many insecurities and doubts of mine...anyway, i really appreciate your working out of your salvation because i can totally relate!