Another challenge yet again...

Well, Miki had her last day of work today. I can't believe how quickly the tide changes. It is interesting though...despite the kind of life changing event this is, we are both not as panicked as we could be. Lord, I am definitely not doubting your presence in our lives, nor am I blaming you for our current situation. I think I am just in confusion of what exactly it is you would have us do now. I guess because this is not something we predicted at all, we must rely more so on what You will have for us in the future. I think we have truly found the meaning in Jeremiah 29:11-13 now. We have faith in You will provide us with a prosperous future, but not only that, but we will find you when we seek you with all our heart. I believe that is what we found tonight. We are able to pray and seek you with all our hearts, and for that, You have given us the peace only You can give. It does not make the journey easier, but it definitely provides an assurance that You are always watching over us. So I guess in a way that does make it more "palatable." Thank you Lord for Your people and Your presence through them. I am not certain what the future holds for us now, but we constantly seek what you would have us do....now more than ever. May we always hold ourselves up for your glory. May I be the man for I need to be for You as well as my family.

Inherent spiritual poverty

Inherent spiritual poverty...something I heard in my daily devotional this morning. I just can't seem to get it out of my head...a total and utter dependence on Him. It is definitely a challenge to remember that we are incomplete...poor in spirit without Him. We are this way in order to truly put our trust in Him, completely and with nothing else in His way. These days have truly been a challenge in knowing that my resources, talent, wisdom and abilities should never substitute my trust in the Lord. It was nice to take some time out in the morning to be alone in the quiet. I need to definitely get more time in to spend in the solitude of prayer. I always have quiet times in the morning, but there was definitely something special about this one, outside the house...in his creation. May God give me the strength to lead our family to Him, it can be such a struggle with finances, time, and everything life is filled with. It is all a great blessing and experience...thank you Lord again for bringing us to your place in your time.

Start of new phase in life...

Hmmm...after being a computer geek for this long...first time I am starting an online journal blog. Definitely something long overdue. Been struggling with the daily journal and study with God, but I really want to pursue this to get closer to Him. I don't exactly know what I will be writing, but I definitely would like to share my thoughts and greatest struggles in order to see how my Lord has formed and shaped me through tough times and experiences. It is confusing to put into words all the thoughts I have online...anyone who wishes to keep a dialogue open with me on this blog, please feel to do so. My goal is to help my "followship" with my Lord and Savior. I truly believe that dialogue is necessary between others to help sharpen each other. I hope that you will all join me on this journey...